Sunday, May 24, 2015

Madison's Birth Story

On Wednesday, May 13th, I had my scheduled 39 week OB appointment and was pretty much convinced how it would go. I just knew that the doctor would tell me that I hadn't progressed at all labor-wise and that they would see me for my 40 week appointment. Instead, the doctor informed me that I was measuring small for 39 weeks and recommended an ultrasound be done to figure out why. I was a bit concerned and was anxious to have some answers. Surprisingly, through the ultrasound, the tech estimated that Madison was already approximately 7 pounds 6 ounces; thus she was not nearly as small as the doctors had originally thought (they had estimated for several weeks that she was a little over 6 pounds). The tech measured the amount of amniotic fluid surrounding Madison, completed the ultrasound, and then escorted me back into one of the examine rooms to wait for the doctor.

The doctor came in, sat down and said: "so you are 38 weeks and 6 days and your amniotic fluid levels are very low...so... (long pause)...let's have a baby!!" I just looked at her, absolutely shocked. Did I miss something!? I proceeded to ask her to clarify whether she meant now and she said yes, now, and to call the hubby. She then asked how soon we could get our hospital bags and get to the hospital.  Still in complete shock and stumbling over my words, I mumbled that we could be there in the next two hours and she told me she would call labor and delivery and alert them we were on our way. I walked out of my doctor's office in pure shock and excitement and immediately called Evan who was still at work (it was around 4 pm). Evan was understandably a bit flustered and assured me he would leave work right away. We were going to get to meet our little one early! I was thrilled!

I drove home (extremely distracted and I probably shouldn't have been driving), called my parents and then hurriedly packed the last minute items in our hospital bags. Of course it took a bit lot longer than I thought it would. Evan arrived home, we packed up the car, got Bella, and drove to Ruth's to drop off Bella.

We arrived at the hospital around 6:30 pm, checked in and I was immediately hooked up to the baby monitors and was given an IV. Additionally, I was given a ripening agent to encourage my cervix to open up (as I hadn't made any progress up to this point). Sleep that night was nearly impossible (due to my excitement and the extremely uncomfortable hospital beds) and I think I maybe got one to two hours total.

Around 8 am the next morning (5/14), our nurse came in and allowed me to take a shower, eat breakfast, and then started pitocin around 9:45 am.

Thus began the waiting game. For the first several hours after starting the pitocin, I started having fairly light contractions. By midday, the contractions had picked up and they were starting to be somewhat painful but bearable. I honestly think one of the hardest parts of being induced was not being able to eat for over 24 hours. My last meal was breakfast around 8 am and I was not allowed to eat anything other than clear liquids until after Madison was born (a little after 10 am the following morning).

By early evening (a little before 6 pm) the OB on call came to check my progress and we were hopeful that I had made significant progress. My contractions at this point were becoming extremely uncomfortable and I was starting to discuss with Evan when we thought I should ask for the epidural (which I knew I would want). Unfortunately, the OB announced that I was only 1.5 cm dilated, which was only .5 cm more than I was that morning before they started the pitocin. I was extremely disappointed and frustrated. I had been in labor all day and had only progressed half a centimeter. I tried to keep it together, but I started crying. I was hungry, my contractions were basically right on top of one another and I wasn't progressing. To top it all off, I knew that the chances of having a c-section increase significantly when you are induced, so at this point, I was already starting to mentally prepare myself for that result. My parents arrived a few minutes later and were startled to see me so upset. Evan explained to them that we had just gotten very disappointing news.

Soon thereafter, I requested the epidural. I did not care that I was only 1.5 cm dilated. I had been laboring all day and my contractions were right on top of one another and were quite strong and painful. Turned out to be the best decision I made all day. Around 10 pm that evening, my epidural was administered and within minutes, the relief I felt was amazing. The epidural even made the bed much more comfortable for me and I was able to get in a good amount of sleep that night.

Early the next morning (5/15) around 6 am, a nurse came to check my progress and announced that I was 9 centimeters dilated. I looked at her, pleasantly surprised and shocked, and asked her to repeat that. She again repeated that I was 9 centimeters dilated. Evan and I were so relieved and excited to hear that I had made so much progress that night. And the best part, is that I didn't feel any of it...I had just slept right through it. The nurse informed us that she would check back in a couple of hours, but that we would likely be meeting our little girl that morning!! We were so excited at that point and I could not stop smiling!!

The next several hours flew by and before I knew it, the nurse came in to check me again and announced that I was 10 centimeters dilated and she could see the baby's head!! I couldn't believe it. It was a very surreal moment; we were about to meet our little girl. The nurse scrambled to get the OB, Dr. Fishburne (whom we really liked a lot) and carts were wheeled in for the last minute prep before I was given permission to start pushing. Before the doctor stepped in, the nurse instructed me that I could give one strong push during a contraction, so I did. As I was pushing, the nurse looked a little surprised and told me to stop pushing as according to Evan her head was already making an appearance! The doctor quickly came in the room and within three pushes and six minutes (not kidding I am not exaggerating), Madison Ashley was born at 10:46 am. I could not believe how quickly the pushing went, but I am not complaining. To put icing on the cake, I apparently had extremely minimal tearing that only required several stitches. It was such a great way to end a process that had been quite lengthy and frustrating at times.

Madison was quickly put on my chest and it was such a surreal moment to be holding our little girl. She barely cried and just looked calmly around the room with her beautiful blue eyes. Madison was cleaned up and Evan got to hold her. They looked so cute together, I wanted to cry. Definitely one of the happiest moments of my life.

I'll let the pictures do the rest of the talking.

Morning of May 14th, after beginning the pitocin.












 Sleeping after the epidural was administered. 


 Go time on 5/15.













Can't believe she is over a week old already!!

She's Here!

Meet our sweet new addition! Madison Ashley was born on May 15, 2015  at 10:46 am; 6 pounds, 13 ounces. I was induced on May 14th due to low amniotic fluid levels. My due date was May 21st. Madison's birth story to come shortly!









 Mom and daughter matchy matchy action.

Right before leaving the hospital.




Thursday, April 30, 2015

Pregnancy Weeks 36 and 37


 35 weeks (I promised a picture of 35 weeks from my last post)


 36 Weeks








37 Weeks


How Far Along: 36-37 weeks {FULL TERM}!! Yay!!
 
Size of Baby:
Baby is the size of a swiss chard or a winter melon (approximately 6.5 pounds)


Gender:
A sweet baby girl! Madison Ashley!


Maternity Clothes: All maternity with several non-maternity pieces squeezed in there.

Workouts: My gym membership is frozen as of May 1; however, I am still getting in walks around the neighborhood with Bella and Evan in the evenings.

Weight Gain:
29 pounds.

Sleep: Same as the last few weeks. Fairly well,I really cannot complain. Occasionally, I will have nights lately where I do not sleep very well. I now regularly have to get up at 3:30 am on the dot to pee. How weird is that? Also, I definitely toss and turn a good bit more than I used to due to the large belly.

Cravings/Aversions: Still craving more salads and healthy options. Evan made chocolate chip cookies; not a good idea!

Movement: ALL the time.

Nursery:
Done!

Symptoms:
Still really do not have too much to complain about. I really hope this continues. In addition to having trouble reaching for items on the coffee table due to the huge belly, I now do not particularly look forward to picking things up off the floor, tying my shoes, etc...it is becoming difficult and uncomfortable.

What I Miss: The same as usual...Caesar salads, soft cheeses and red wine....probably the red wine the most. 
Mood: Happy most of the time. Hospital bag is packed (more to come on this soon). We are continuing to freeze meals in preparation for Madison's arrival. I am definitely trying to make sure the house is in complete order as well. 

Best Moment This Week:
Our 37 week doctor's appointment. Doctor told me that she estimates Madison is a little under 6 pounds at this point and thinks that she will be approximately 7 pounds by the time she is born. This is wonderful news, considering my mom keeps telling me that big babies run on her side of the family.


Looking Forward To:
Of course getting to meet our little one!! I hope May 21st comes quickly; we are so ready!!

Monday, April 20, 2015

Pregnancy Weeks 33-35

 
 33 Weeks




                                                                     34 Weeks


 **I unfortunately do not have a picture for 35 weeks yet, but will include it with my next pregnancy post.

How Far Along: 33-35 weeks
 
Size of Baby:
Baby is the size of a honeydew melon (approximately 5.25 pounds)


Gender:
A sweet baby girl! Madison Ashley!


Maternity Clothes: All maternity with several non-maternity pieces squeezed in there.

Workouts: My gym membership is frozen as of May 1; however, I am still getting in walks around the neighborhood with Bella and Evan in the evenings. I want to begin a squat regime asap and also some light arm weights. I really need to walk more. Must get motivated...

Weight Gain:
27 pounds.

Sleep: Fairly well,I really cannot complain. Occasionally I will have nights lately where I do not sleep very well. I definitely toss and turn a good bit more than I used to due to the large belly.

Cravings/Aversions: Still craving more salads and healthy options. Also really craving guacamole, but that has been ongoing throughout this pregnancy. Bagels with cream cheese (not so healthy).

Movement: ALL the time. Lately, Madison's movements have become quite intense...to the point where Evan took a video of what we believe to be her knee or leg protruding significantly from my belly moving from one side to another. Her movements are so strong they are sometimes uncomfortable!!

Nursery:
Done!

Symptoms:
Other than a quickly growing belly, I am starting to have some other less than desirable side effects, but nothing too cumbersome. Specifically, I am finally having some difficulty getting up from a sitting position, getting in and out of bed now takes a good bit more effort, and I definitely cannot reach for things on the coffee table while sitting on the couch without significant discomfort. Probably the most uncomfortable side effect that I am having is mild upper backaches in the afternoons/evenings. I am pretty sure that is not due to the big belly, but ahem...the girls that are ginormous! Please tell me this is temporary, because I am not a fan!  On the plus side, I can still "out walk" most people at work. I am known for being a really fast walker and I am happy to state that so far pregnancy has not slowed me down very much!  I am very thankful though for how easy this pregnancy has been (at least so far).

What I Miss: The same as usual...Caesar salads, soft cheeses and red wine....probably the red wine the most. 
Mood: Happy most of the time. Hospital bag is basically packed (more to come on this soon), we have begun for the past several weeks to make meals to freeze for after Madison comes, and we are in the process of deep cleaning the house.  

Best Moment This Week:
Picking out Madison's outfits for the hospital. I got so excited coordinating her hair bows, onsies, and dresses. It makes it so much more real that our little girl will be here in (hopefully) a Month!!


Looking Forward To:
Of course getting to meet our little one!! I hope May 21st comes quickly; we are so ready!!

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

A Difficult Subject

I apologize in advance for the depressing post, but I have wanted to share this for a long time now and for some reason now seems like the right time.

I want to first say, that I have been extremely fortunate with not having many hardships the first thirty or so years of my life. I am grateful for that. I have been blessed with so many wonderful people and events in my life and I am truly thankful. Generally, I try to keep my posts very upbeat, however, today I want to discuss something that has deeply affected me and honestly I don't think I will ever be the same: having a miscarriage.

In May 2014, on a Sunday morning, I will never forget how thrilled/excited/shocked I was to get that positive on a pregnancy test. I had gone off the pill only three weeks before and I really did not think I would get pregnant that quickly. We honestly were not even “trying” yet.  I could not contain my excitement and although we had several family members staying with us that weekend, I quickly put on some clothes and ran out to pull Evan aside and tell him the amazing news. I will never forget the tears of joy in his eyes when I told him that he was going to be a daddy. We cried, hugged, and kept our amazing little secret to ourselves the rest of the weekend. We then proceeded over the next two weeks to tell a select few individuals the joyous news: my parents, his parents, and several close friends. 

On the day of our first doctor's appointment I woke up with some minor cramping. I wasn't terribly concerned until I went to the bathroom and noticed a few drops of blood. Now every pregnant woman knows that any amount of blood is a very scary thing. The bleeding picked up very slightly and I began to panic. Evan and I went to work although all I really wanted to do was sit at home and cry. I kept asking Evan if I should call our OBGYN immediately and that maybe they could do something.  He told me to call at work, but that honestly there was nothing they could do.  I felt so incredibly helpless.  At work, I researched everything I could find about bleeding during pregnancy and it didn't look very good.  I called the nurse at our OBGYN and she told me not to panic and that unless the bleeding was major, it was most likely nothing to worry about and that they would see us at our eight week appointment that afternoon.  I barely got through the day I was so upset and worried.  By the time we got to the doctor's appointment, the bleeding had picked up a good bit and I was starting to suspect the worst.  One of the technicians performed an ultrasound after what seemed like waiting for FOREVER. I kept looking hopefully at the technician's face for any clue as to what she was seeing on the screen, but I got nothing. After the ultrasound, we were taken into a room to wait for the doctor. The doctor came in after what seemed like an ETERNITY and immediately told us that they couldn't see anything on the ultrasound.  I immediately started sobbing.  Although all day I was mentally preparing myself for the worst, I never in a million years thought it would actually happen. I never thought I would miscarry.  It really is one of those things that although is very common, I think every woman thinks it won't happen to them.  I, at least, didn't think it would happen to me. The next twenty-four hours were a blur. I think Evan and I both were in shock.  

After the initial shock and horror wore off came the questions....did I do something to cause this? Am I going to miscarry again? After the first week, came the feelings of anger and resentment.  Why did this happen to us? How are so many other people able to have children without miscarrying? Are we going to be able to have children naturally? The questions and sense of fear of the unknown wouldn't go away.  I would like to say that it got easier to live with what happened.  It did after two months or so...a very little bit.  Every time I found out another acquaintance was pregnant or saw moms with their children, it hurt.  I wanted to have a baby so badly and it was taken away from me. Not to say that I wasn't happy for others, but my pain made it very hard for me to be around others with children, especially babies.  For the most part; the pain really did not lessen until we found out we were pregnant again.  I told Evan the day I miscarried that the only way I would truly be able to move past the miscarriage would be to conceive again and have a healthy baby.  Thankfully, we cried tears of joy when we found out approximately three months after miscarrying that we were expecting again.  I felt so much better once I knew we were on the path to beginning again.  Although it took us only approximately three months after the miscarriage to conceive again, it seemed like an eternity.  It gave me a very small taste of what it would be like to have issues with infertility and it was AWFUL.  I can't even imagine dealing with not getting pregnant for a year or more.  I feel for all those women who have had issues with this.

I would never wish a miscarriage on my worst enemy; it was a pretty traumatic thing to go through; however I learned a great deal from the experience. It made me value life so much more than I did previously and made me so thankful now that I am now having a healthy pregnancy. I think I took it for granted that I would be able to conceive easily and with no issues.  I realize now that there are no guarantees in life.

So why disclose all of this? After I miscarried, I really appreciated reading other blog's where women described their feelings after miscarrying and in many cases ultimately having a healthy pregnancy.  It made me feel better and gave me hope that I would one day have a healthy baby. I want to do the same for others. I know that my experience probably pales in comparison to a lot of others, but for me it was probably one of the most difficult things I have ever had to deal with.

As many of you know, we are expecting our first child, a baby girl, in May. For the past 34 weeks, I have had a very easy and healthy pregnancy and I am so thankful for that.  For those of you who are currently dealing with the grief of a miscarriage, I want you to know that there is hope. There 
is a very good chance that you will go on to have a healthy baby.  You may feel hopeless now, but know that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel and that there is a very good chance that you will experience the joy that we are feeling with the impending birth of our first child. Miscarriage is one of those fluke things that is devastating and unexplainable.  Although it is definitely one of the most difficult things we have dealt with, it has definitely made us stronger and thankful for everything God has given us and especially thankful for our baby girl that will be here in six weeks or less.


Sunday, April 5, 2015

Madison's Nursery

Happy Easter! We have been in Wilmington, NC all weekend celebrating a last little weekend getaway before little Madison makes an appearance; however I finally have time to post pictures of Madison's completed nursery!! Without further ado, here is the finished product. I am so excited that it is done! It has honestly been done for awhile, but just haven't shared!! At the very bottom, I have provided links as to where I found items for the nursery as much as possible.


 
 





















 
 










 
 


























 
Shelving {Pottery Barn and Marshall's Home Goods}
 
 
Rug {Overstock.com}
 
Crib {Amazon.com} 
 
 
Chandelier {Ikea}
 
Chevron Pillow {Ikea} 
 
Pink Curtains {Ikea}
 
Picture Frames {Ikea}
 
Curtain Rods {Lowe's}
 
Misc. Décor {Hobby Lobby} 
 
Baskets/Diaper Caddy {Pottery Barn Kids}
 
Diaper Bag {Kate Spade}
 
Graphics for pictures {via Pinterest for free}
 
Rocker {was Evan's as a baby}
 
Quatrefoil Changing Cover {Etsy} 
 
Apothecary Jars {Marshall's Home Goods}
 
Storage Containers in closet {Ikea and Target}
 
Wooden Monogram above crib {Etsy} 

 
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