Thoughts on Thursday: Cleaning out my Closet {literally}!

Linking up with Annie from Home of the Malones and Natalie from East Coast Chic again for Thoughts on Thursday.

Have you ever kept clothing items that currently do not fit you because you think "oh this will fit later" when I: 1) lose that extra five pounds; 2) tone those legs; and/or 3) my butt magically shrinks?  Maybe it is just me, but ever since around age 18, I have been perpetually holding on to certain clothing items with the thought; I will fit into these smaller clothes one day. Well, when is that day going to come? Possibly never.

I am not saying that you shouldn't have fitness goals; I always have and will, however, I think at some point I need to accept the fact that it may be a tad unrealistic to fit back into that size 0 pair of Jcrew shorts.  I mean let's be honest, I am turning the BIG 3-0 this September {still in DENIAL}.  Evan and I plan to hopefully start a family in the near future. If I am being honest and realistic; do I really think given our future plans that I will get that small again? Maybe, but I really doubt it. I can't wear these clothing items now, what makes me think that after kids I will magically be able to fit into them then?

Like I said, don't get me wrong; I think it is wonderful to have fitness goals {and I have plenty of them}; however, I may just be setting myself up for failure if I expect to fit into clothing that I wore when Evan and I got married {think working out 6 days per week, personal trainer and my own personally tailored diet plan small}. I mean I looked GREAT, but who has that kind of time all the time? I digress... 

So, with all of this being said, I cleaned out my closet this past weekend, being honest and realistic with what I think I will actually be able to fit into in the future. I also got rid of all those "teeny bopper" shorts with the 1.5 inch inseams {long overdue in my opinion}. I asked myself two questions as I completed my closet purge: 1) would I feel comfortable wearing this around other mommies in the future and 2) does it fit {or nearly fits...i did keep a couple of things that almost fit currently}.

After cleaning out my closet, I realized there was a deeper significance in my actions than just merely making additional closet space. Getting rid of  those too small clothes was a form of acceptance of my current physique. I can diet and exercise all I want {and I do and will continue to}; however, there is only so much I can do. I am the way I am {to an extent} and I need to stop living for the time that I can fit into some of these clothes; because it may never happen.

Taking it a step further, holding onto those clothes is another example of me living too much in the future and not enough in the present.  I am so guilty of letting the present pass me by because I am always striving to improve myself, inwardly and outwardly in the future. Although I believe it is great to be constantly striving to better yourself; this thinking causes me to always be looking to the future and not enjoying the present. I think enjoying my current size and appearance is at least one step in the right direction. So, maybe with my closet purging, I have made a small step in the right direction {I hope} towards living in the present and not merely striving/hoping for the future.